By: Alfredo Morgen Wiria — Photo credit: Unknown
I have this particular problem recently.
I woke up in the morning, stayed in the bed for a while, and said to myself: “What I am trying to do?”.
I did those things because I don’t have anything to do.
Even if I do have some things to do, like going to college, preparing breakfast, doing my homework, and many other countless task, I still wonder why I am doing it.
I don’t have a purpose, or so I thought.
I spend some good ten years of my childhood life beginning the morning by being told what to do by my mom and dad, my older siblings, or my teachers. I just followed what they said to me. Like: do this, do that, you got to eat this, here is how you can do it, something like that.
It might seem trivial, but those things they told me, become my guide in my walk of life.
The Hand that Led Us
It’s just like ever since we started our walk in life and whenever we take a step in life, we always have a figure beside us, who told us where to go to, firmly grasping our hand and helping us continuously. Like a father holding the little hand of her daughter, leading and guiding her whenever she goes in her search of the wondrous world.
Then, one day, that hand is gone.
Actually, the figure has been too frail for world ahead. He let go of our hand, so we can go farther. But, then, we are alone. The figure we always know is not there anymore. No one else to lead and guide us. We need to do many things ourselves.
What are we supposed to do with our life?
Well, that’s what my life looks like this 6 months, living a college life. I had grown so used to getting told what to do, that when it’s the time for me to do something without being told what to do, I was confused.
What are we supposed to do with our life anyway?
I don’t have an answer myself, but out of thousand of things we can do, I think we are supposed to lead others.
We were born alone after all, but then someone came, approached us and held our hand. This figure then becomes the one who show us the world around that we never know.
He didn’t have to lead us, but he did so anyway.
For most of us, the figure that we will lead is the future generation, our own child or other child that was left behind or born unloved. But for some others, it will be their little family members: their cousin, niece, nephew. Then, to some gifted others, they will lead their friend, co-worker, or even an entire nation.
We will lead others just like someone else have led us.
This knowledge, it won’t change your life in a single night, as it doesn’t change mine either. But, there comes a satisfaction, that whatever we are doing right now and what we will do, it makes us go farther, closer to be a person that will lead someone.
We will no longer be a follower, but a leader.
And for many of us, we are just like the children that now have to go on alone. With the end in mind, that one day, we will lead someone, just like we have been led. It is our purpose then to ensure that we will be a person worth doing it.